Goodbye 39….Hello 40

I must say, I’ve been dreading this day for a long time.

In less than 30 minutes I will officially be 40!

I wanted to write a big blog about my regrets, future plans, and most importantly being “single” at 40!!

It was going to be full of sadness and depression about how I never thought my life would be like this at 40……blah blah blah!!!

Then, I was reminded tonight what my life is all about.  What my purpose is…..when a 10 year old boy in my Awana class came up to me and told me he wanted to be saved.     I grabbed my Bible and showed him how to accept Christ as his Savior.

After that, everything else just disappeared.

Best early Birthday present ever!!!

Good bye 39….Bring it on 40!

This is what’s it’s all about!

Thank You God.

No water…..and Mr. Doody!!!

How can you describe my life?
Hectic. Chaotic. Humorous. Blessed!

Weekend started out with a Saturday morning basketball buzzer beater in which my son’s team lost. What a game!!
I was prepared for the worst as my son had the ball stolen from him in the last three seconds of a tied game, then SWISH!!
Game Over!!
He walked off that court smiling. He and the kid who stole the ball from him had some laughs after the game.
We never mentioned the game again!!

I had a “girls weekend” planned with the Secret Keeper Girl’s Crazy Hair Tour. My sister brought Caty and I tickets for Cat’s birthday present earlier in the month.
It didn’t seem right to leave Adam after playing (and losing) such a game. We quickly decided to ditch the Crazy Hair tour and invite Adam and his friends Robert along. (Basically out of pity, and I don’t want to have fun without my little buddy!)
Off to Virginia.
The drive was amazing. God out did himself this weekend! It is amazing what an ice storm can do to nature! It reminded me of the Disney movie Frozen!
The ice clung to every twig and branch through the Rolling mountains. It looked like diamonds glistening as the sun beamed through the hills.
Caty couldn’t stop saying “mommy look!!!” As she was snapping pictures from the back seat posting them on Instagram and snapchat.
Caty and my step-niece were listening to music and taking selfies while the boys in the back were playing games on their phones.
It was a fast trip complete with shopping, dinner and swimming in the hotel pool.
We don’t have cable at our house, so the boys spent the evening resting from their game and their dip in the pool by watching nickelodeon until they finally fell asleep.
My sis had the girls in a separate room. Apparently, they were forced to watch a Lifetime movie about Whitney Houston. Both girls agreed the next morning that they would have had more fun in my room watching nickelodeon!
We missed church!!
And I “missed” church.
Morning started out with Caty dropping a sprite on the way to my hotel room.
Adam was sitting in the floor next to me as I was using a flat iron to straighten my hair. When all of a sudden we were showered with an entire bottle of exploding Sprite!
I’ve never seen anything like it. It looked like a “mentos” soda rocket!
I kept my cool well. By the look on caty’s face, she was expecting the worst!
After cleaning up myself, Adam, the floors, walls and ceiling of the room we ate at a local
IHOP where the kids had their fare share of sugar!! Chocolate chocolate chip pancakes!!! I asked them to refrain from using syrup for fear of being stuck in a car with them and their sugar highs for the next two hours.
My sis has a Starbucks addiction. Of course that was our next stop.
“Mom can I have something to drink?” Caty asked.
“No sis, we just ate breakfast. You don’t need anything.”
“Pleeeease Mom!!!! I am thirsty!!!”
“I’ll get you a bottle of water!!!” Starting to get a little louder because i knew what was coming next.
“It’s not fair!! Aunt Kerri gets a drink! You are a ******!!” (insert your own imagination here)
This is where the disability comes in!! The one where you can’t rationalize because she has already focused on getting Starbucks!
“Fine Caty…..!!!!!” I just wanted to diffuse the situation quickly before it got worse!!

“Good morning, welcome to Starbucks. Can I take your order?”
“Yes mam, I need an iced caramel macchiato with an extra shot and a Strawberries and cream frappé!”
I go to the next window to wait for the drinks. Looked in my rear view mirror at a Mom (I am certain she was a Mom). She looked frazzled. Hair a mess. Driving her minivan. Sweatshirt. She was rubbing the sleep out of her eyes and playing with her very tousled hair! She didn’t smile. She had a look of pure stress on her face! I could tell she needed her shot of caffeine. As I looked at her, I could feel her strain. I could relate to her.
When the cashier took my money. I told her I wanted to pay for the ladies drink behind me. Cashier smiled and gladly took the extra $5.
As I was leaving, I told the cashier to tell the woman to have a “wonderful day”! It looked like she needed a good dose of encouragement. And I needed to Pay It Foward. Nothing wrong with doing a good deed for a stranger every now and then.

Ok the way home we became aware of a diesel spill that happened in our town. We were coming home to NO WATER!! we took advantage of the local grocery store as we stocked up on gallons of water and bottled water. I stayed in the car with the boys as my sis and the girls took on the store to grab our supply of water.
After piling in our water (which made us look like a bad episode of Doomsday Preppers) I asked Cat what she did with her Starbucks frappé. “I didn’t want it mom.” as she was tearing open her bottle of water!!!!
Yes I said WATER!!!!!
I chuckled. Because that is what you do when you are on the verge of a mental breakdown.

We were about 45 min into the trip when the kids nearly ripped each other’s heads off for a package of beef jerky!!! (My kids reallllly like beef jerky!!)
Beef jerky massacre was diffused by me yelling that I was going to stop the car and throw everyone out!!! Then I’m moving away and not giving anyone a forwarding address.
Rest of the trip was uneventful except for Adam pulling out his tooth!!!
(oh, I’ll be right back…..I need to play tooth fairy before he wakes up!!! Good thing I reminded myself while blogging!!!)
Got home.
Unpacked car.
ok, so did you get that?
I colored my hair forgetting that we had NO WATER!!
The first gallon of water that we stockpiled went to rinsing my hair!

Then came the questions:
Why don’t we have water?
Can I take a shower in your room?
Does the hallway bathroom have water?
Does grandma have water?
What if I need to wash my hands?
Are we going to die?
Can you die because of no water?
What are the dogs going to drink?
I have to pee!!! Can I still owe?
Can we flush the toilet?
Why is diesel in the river?
Is that bad?
Can you drink diesel?
Will that kill you?
When can we take a bath?
Do you smell something?
Adam needs a bath mom!! He had basketball practice!!
Can Adam at least take a bath?

Ohhhhh. This went on for hours!!!!

Caty doesn’t understand “change”!! She gets so stressed out!!!
I answered every question. Numerous times!
Chucking once again!! Only this time ending with the Serenity Prayer after getting the (already expected) phone call that school was cancelled!

…..Lord help me to accept things that I cannot change………..😜

Then this happened…

“Come out come out Mr. Doody…….”
My son sang that song loudly as he was taking a dump in the bathroom adjacent to the family room!!!

Mom, Adam is singing the “Mr. Doody song”!! Is the house going to stink?
How can we flush “Mr. Doody” down?
Do we have water yet?
Why did Adam have to poop?
Where is grandpa?
Grandpa can fix this!!
Can grandpa flush the toilet?
Mom, you need to call Grandpa!!!


Let’s have a dance party!!!
(Um, lord. I did say SERENITY NOW!!!!!!)

Two hours later…..and the Pitch Perfect version of “Like a Virgin” along with a recording of the kids singing “When I was Your Man” I was ready to call it a night!!

We watched a sweet movie about a Christian Youth Camp. Kids calmed down a bit!
Until they all started playing some game on their phones which, apparently, is difficult and stressful. My niece threw her phone. The other one threw her jacket across the room. My Step-niece whined! Caty laughed because she thought the game was fun and easy!!!
Adam’s eyes looked like they were going to pop out of his head!!!!

“Ok guys we have to go to bed!!!!”

Adam and my oldest niece quietly went to bed!! Well, not before she spilled an entire can of soda on the kitchen floor!!! (Second gallon of water used to mop the floor!!!)

The other three girls………
I’m thirsty! Can we drink the water?
Why isn’t there any water coming out of the faucet?
I have to pee!!
Ohhhhh gross!!!!! Adam pooped!!!!
The bathroom stinks!!
How long will the bathroom stink?
It stinks!!!!

GO TO BED!!!!!
For the love of all that is Holy!!!!!
Just go to bed!!!!!!!

I can’t go to bed without a TV!!
Can we sleep on the couch?
Do you have blankets?

Go to bed!!!

2:30am. Still giggling!

I’m up!
Can’t wait for the water questions to start again!

I’ve already asked God for copious amounts of patience.
I prayed for the mom in the Starbucks line this morning. I think she really needed it.
Hoping she may say a little prayer of her own for the lady from WV that bought her coffee for her!!

Have a blessed day everyone!!
Thank God for your water supply!!!
Looks like we may be out for a few days!!!

I may keep Mr. Doody around to annoy the girls!!!






Whatever you want to call it, ’tis the season to let someone know you are thinking about them.  sometimes a simple Thank You or a phone call just to let them know that they are on your mind can make someone’s entire week!!!

It is also a time to reflect on what is important in your life, or maybe things you are grateful for.

How do I even begin?

Here is my thankful list in no particular order:

  1. My strong faith in God
  2. My two beautiful children
  3. The Past, Present and Future
  4. My furry kids.
  5. My Daddy
  6. My Momma
  7. Sisters
  8. Extended Family
  9. Photography
  10. Pottery
  11. Cheesecake
  12. My church family
  13. Health
  14. Teenagers
  15. Books
  16. Awanas…Kids, volunteers and the ability to make a difference in these kids lives!
  17. Chocolate
  18. Red Bull
  19. Haiti
  20. Pandora
  21. Homeschooling
  22. Passport stamps
  23. Blogging
  24. All Four Seasons
  25. My Ex Husband
  26. My squeaky ceiling fan
  27. Snooze button
  28. Cell Phone
  29. Pictures
  30. Ability to forgive
  31. …..and forget
  32. Lifetime movies
  33. Unsweetened tea
  34. Roller Coasters
  35. Sports Bras
  36. Yoga pants
  37. Naturally curly hair……and my Flat iron
  38. my couch
  39. Lawn Mower
  40. Crushed ice
  41. Matching Socks
  42. Good Night Prayers
  43. Good Morning Kisses
  44. Grass Stained Football pants
  45. Mismatched socks
  46. Frozen Blueberries
  47. Disabilities
  48. Breakfast Food
  49. Naps
  50. Netflix
  51. SnapChat
  52. Sad songs
  53. Flowers
  54. Random dancing in the kitchen
  55. Ice Cream and Milk
  56. unconditional love
  57. Missing Shoes
  58. Long Drives
  59. sleepovers
  60. Best Friends
  61. Old Friends
  62. New Friends
  63. New Relationships
  64. Cartwheels
  65. Trampolines
  66. MEMORIES!!!!

This is my short list!!!

Many blessing to each one of you who follow my Blog.    Have a happy and safe Holiday!!!

Until next time….Make your own thankful list!!!!

The Power of Prayer

Can I ask you a serious question? 

I know that all of us have found ourselves in situations on Facebook where an acquaintance, friend, or relative posts a prayer request on their wall.  Maybe someone is sick, there had been an accident or some other tragedy has left them devastated and begging for prayers. 

Then the outpouring of replies flood their wall….I am praying.   Prayers lifted up.  I am here for you.  Is there anything I can do?   Praying right now!!!

So here is the question:

Which friend are you?   Are you the friend who eagerly posts I am praying for you right now and actually stops everything they are doing at that very moment and lifts them or their family members up in prayers.   Or are you the person who posts Praying for you and continues to scroll down the pages to read other posts as if you have already forgotten about your friends dire need for God to intervene in their lives.

Now let’s be honest with ourselves…..

I have been that friend.  Yes, I am ashamed to admit it. 

About a week ago, that all changed.  I have several friends going through some very difficult times in their lives.  Some divorces, others cancer, lost jobs, death of loved ones…..oh I could go on and on.   

I tell them that I am praying for them, but how often did I really pray?   


I got a late night phone call last week, when I hastily grabbed my phone to see who on earth would be calling at such a crazy hour, I noticed it was a good friend of mine.   I quickly answered the phone saying Is everything ok??  On the other end of the phone was sobbing and crying, she was crying so hard I couldn’t understand her.  I waited for her to calm down, as I sat and listened to my sweet friend’s heart breaking.   

Then she asked me to pray with her.   I knew what she had been going through without even having to ask.  We prayed together.  I prayed specifically for healing, and for God to work a miracle in her life.   When we were finished praying, I asked her, What made you think of me?  Why me?   I look at myself sometimes and think what on earth do I have to offer anyone.  Here I am, a divorced single mom.  What kind of advice can I give anyone.  I couldn’t keep my own marriage together.   Her response overwhelmed me.  Because of you, I haven’t given up.  I see your faith in God.  When things were falling apart in your own life, you offered to help me.  You were there to pray with me.  YOU NEVER GAVE UP.   

This late night phone call made me put some things in perspective.  I had a lot of time to think today as I spent three consecutive hours on my mower, normally I take that time to listen to music, occasionally I sing out loud and probably look like an insane person.  Sometimes I take the time to feel sorry for myself and try to hash out my own broken life.   But today, I prayed.  and I prayed.  and I prayed some more.    I had two specific people in mind and I prayed!!!!    What’s funny, I actually prayed that God would use these two people to help each other….I really prayed about that.  


This just happened to be the night my son asked Jesus in his heart….we never miss a chance to pray together.

I want to encourage you tonight…..take the time to pray for each other.   Goodness, if any of you spend any time just on Facebook alone you would spend at least 15 minutes or more on your knees just praying for those requests.  We all need someone to actually follow through and pray just as you commented on their post that you would do.

I will make you a promise…..If I tell you that I am praying for you…..I am really going to pray!

Where two or three are gathered in My name, there am I in the midst of them.

                                                                                                   Matthew 18:20

Until next time….pray for me.  





Written Legacy

This happens to be one of my favorite pictures of you guys....for a brief minute, you actually acted like you liked each other.

This happens to be one of my favorite pictures of you guys….for a brief minute, you actually acted like you liked each other.

I woke up at 3:47 am with an uneasy thought going through my mind.  There are many things I could blame it on, maybe it is the movie my friend and I watched yesterday which was wildly inappropriate for a person in my current situation to watch.  Or it easily could be the 8 hours of non stop laughing and talking I always manage to do when I get around my favorite people.  Actually, I am going to blame it on the salad and pasta I devoured at Olive Garden, or maybe the veal sweetbreads (calf pancreas), trout almondine, another salad, and 7 layer chocolate cake I ate late last night with another sweet friend.

Regardless of how my stomach feels, which at this point I am not sure if it is food poisoning, over indulging, or nerves, I have this feeling something is about to rock my world, and I find myself still up at 5am preparing for an attack on my very soul…..or it really could be indigestion!!

This morning as I lay in this empty bed, I began to question my significance in this world.  Nobody likes to think about their own mortality, but as I lie here this morning the thoughts racing through my mind consisted of my own death.  What kind of legacy would l leave my children?   These thoughts prompted me to thank God for my health, because we all know that good health is a privilege.  All of the ordinary tasks that I take for granted:  driving kids to school, practices, games, recitals, movies…….grocery shopping, taking them to church.   Those all seem like daily tasks that most people just muddle through day in and day out, but somehow this morning I looked at it as the most incredible blessing that has been denied by many due to health, unforeseen circumstances, and even untimely deaths.

You do not know what will happen tomorrow.  What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.

James 4:14

All week long the thoughts of writing my kids letters have been going through my mind.  Not so much a little letter proclaiming my unconditional love to them, but more like a future guideline for them just in case I am not around one day.  This is something that I want to do and although it is a tad difficult to talk about an untimely death, I  am seriously considering a separate blog for them personally.   This is the beginning of my written legacy to them as I jot down just a few things that have crossed my mind, there will be many more “motherly advice” to add on in the pending days to come.

To my sweet beautiful children:

  • Plain and simple…..God first!
  • Be grateful.  Every day make a list of things you are grateful for (just for that day), you will be surprised that the good will always out weigh the bad.
  • Be sure your sins will find you out.  If you have to hide to do something, chances are you shouldn’t be doing it.   Remember, God sees everything.
  • You will make mistakes, but don’t let them define you.  Learn from them and move on.
  • Forgive, forgive and then forgive some more.   Remember, not everyone will actually ask you for forgiveness.  Forgive them anyway!!!
  • You are better than no one and no one is better than you.  Don’t you dare think that you are better than anyone!!!  (I will haunt you forever if you get some “holier than thou” attitude.)
  • Take care of each other.  No matter how much you think you dislike each other now, grow up and be each other’s best friends.  call each other everyday, visit each other as often as you can.  I never regretted a second spent with my family.
  • There is good in every situation.  Remember, it’s not a bad life….it’s just a bad day.  (and you will have bad days, so be prepared)
  •  Cry….it’s ok to cry and when you do, let it all out.  I mean cry till your head hurts and your eyes are swollen.   I spent most of my life, especially in my 20’s and 30’s terrified for someone to see me fall apart.  I avoided weddings, funerals and sad movies simply because I didn’t want anyone to see me have any kind of emotional breakdown.   These past two years have taught me one thing……and that is Let is out!  Don’t hold in your emotions.  The Bible says in Psalms  “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all the tears in your bottle.  You have recorded each one in your book.”   I want you to remember that verse every time a tear trickles down your face.
  • Don’t cry forever…I know I know, I just said to cry.   You can figure this one out on your own.
  •  Tell the truth.  You tell a lie, then you have to cover up that lie with another lie, and that lie with another lie…..then before you know it you have convinced yourself it was truth all along when all you have done is create a web of lies!!
  • There is a little button on your phone, it is red usually and it says “end”…..Don’t be afraid to press that button.
  •  There is also a green button on the phone, it says “call”….Don’t be afraid to use that button either.
  • YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!   Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.  Got it?
  • You can’t change people….so don’t try!!   Don’t even go there.
  •  Learn to love to read.  I know that right now reading is boring and you are not interested at all in picking up a book, but books can take you places you have never been or maybe places you will never get to go.   There is one book I want you to read everyday and that is the Bible….don’t be afraid to write in it, highlight your favorite verses and take notes.  Study it, memorize it, quote it….Use it as a guideline for your life, a weapon  when you are facing the devil head on, and gratitude when you are praising God.

Ok, so this is just the beginning.  I can already think of at least 294 things I can write about but Momma needs to get ready to take you to church.   You will be coming home from Daddy’s house soon and I can’t wait to give you a big hug and kiss.     Today you will be debuting your hip hop skills and beautiful whimsical moves as you make me proud on stage at your recital.

You make me proud everyday and I am eternally grateful to be called your Mommy…..

Until next time….I love you.

(so this blog is kinda meant for my kids, but I want to encourage each and everyone of you to make your own list for your kids or grandkids……make it your written legacy.  This is a priceless gift!!)

Until next time my friends, start your list.

The Day After Mothers Day

Just like that….another Mother’s Day is over.  No breakfast in bed this morning, flowers are already looking kinda puny, house is demolished from the previous day’s festivities, washing machine is making it’s rhythmic hum along with the dryer, dish washer is thoroughly cleaning yesterdays dishes, and the smoke is still lingering from the fire pit while the ants devour the remnants of graham cracker that are crumbled on the ground.

With a cup of black coffee in my grips, I sat down to read my devotions and reminisce a little before my day actually gets any more hectic. As I was reading this morning, I came across some interesting scripture that captured my heart this morning.

Children’s children are a crown to the aged, and parents are the pride of their children.

Proverbs 17:6 (NIV)

Proverbs 17:6 tells us that grandchildren are the crowns of the aged.  That means Granparents think that their Grandkids are more beautiful than crowns or jewels.  There are people in this world who wear diamonds and jewels that are probably worth more value than my house and car combined.   But what we have are far more valuable than diamonds or pearls.  Our kids and grandkids are priceless!!


Yesterday, as I soaked in the glory of Mother’s day, I spent it with my own Momma, two Aunts, and my two beautiful sisters.   I studied them carefully yesterday as my Dad held on to the arm of my Aunt as they slowly walked up the steps.  I saw the years in her eyes as she told me she wished she could laugh as much as I did.   Her advice to me: “Please love your kids. They don’t need fancy clothes or vacations, they need your unconditional love. Never stop going to church and always pray.”


My second mom/Aunt was overwhelmed with flowers, cards, candies and hugs yesterday.  She never had kids of her own, but honestly she is the most selfless human being on this earth.  I take after her in so many ways, we can both cry at “the drop of a hat”, we have laughed till I have seen her literally pee her pants (not because of old age), and she loves my babies as if they were her own.   Just like she always loved me, with an overwhelming love only a Mother can give.    Her advice to me:  “Church is free, teach your kids the importance of Jesus and show them the way to everlasting life.”

Both of my sisters and I spent the day taking needless “selfies”, swinging on the swings with the kids, laughing hysterically at each other, laying in the grass in the back yard talking about our ornery kids and work, school, husbands and significant others.   We shared pictures and asked for advice.  By the end of the day, we smelled like smoke from the fire pit and the Greenbrier River where we stuck our toes in the water while we yelled at the kids not to splash us.    My advice to them:   Don’t ever change!!


I saved the best for last……My precious Momma.

A wife of noble character who can find?  She is worth far more than rubies.  Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.  She brings good and no harm all the days of her life….and works with eager hands…….She gets up while it is still night; she provides food for her family…….her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also and he praises her.

Proverbs 31 (NIV)

My mom is the “backbone” of this family.  She works from daylight till dark cooking, cleaning, and even still irons my dad’s hankies.  She has been a faithful wife and a caregiver to her daughters and 7 grandchildren.   She is not only my mom, she is the best friend I ever had.  She is my shoulder to cry on and she has taught me the art of forgiveness.  She prays everyday for my Daddy, her daughters, her grandkids, and for her son in laws.   Everyone is welcome in her home and she never knows a stranger.  She has a contagious laugh and beautiful smile and is full of love and confidence that “all things work together for good”.

Her advice:   BE HAPPY….and

Commit your ways to the Lord and He will establish your plans.

Proverbs 16:3 9 (NIV)


Yep, it’s over….the one day where us Mother’s get to sit back and enjoy the warm hugs, the laughter, muddy feet, and stinky river kisses and dirty bath water.   It is the one day when we can look at our kids and smile, and know they we are so special we had a whole day created just for us!!!  I am so proud to be Cat and Adam’s Mom…..


My advice to them:   Don’t ever doubt my undying love for you.  (I adore you two precious angels)   Love God, love yourselves, and love each other.   Make memories with me and don’t forget them.  Make each day count and never give up.

Until next time…..Happy “day after” Mother’s day.

(Now get to work, this house isn’t going to clean itself!!!!)


What a Day!


Ever wake up with the overwhelming feeling that today is destined to be doomed before it even begins? Well, this little bundle of sunshine felt that way this morning.

The kids happened to be in an amazing mood as they giggled and took selfies all morning. My preteen has discovered her beauty through the world of selfies and Instagram.  I have limited her Instagram to a minimum of two selfies a day and gave her a speech about vanity. Although I did chuckle as her dad and I both agreed this morning that we do have some good looking kids.

After I dropped the kids off at school I came home to a long list of chores ahead of me.   Dry Wall dust still lingers in my house as I am thoroughly spring cleaning each room.  I went to the courthouse to apply for my passport for my 10 day trip to Haiti in July,  and oh yeah did I happen to mention I’m a full time college student?

One day I decided at 38 years old I wanted to do something for myself. Most women would go to the spa or maybe take a trip to the Bahamas, I decided to put myself through school.  I am in my third semester and decided yesterday that I am changing my major. I want to keep this a secret for a while, but I think a lot of people will be very surprised when they find out what I changed my major to.  I cannot be happier with my decision.

This is finals week so I am very busy.  I have a thesis due this week , two tests, a discussion board, and also a biblical dictionary project. Last week I had a biblical dictionary project due and I chose to do it on Hosea.    I wrote that paper with nothing but confidence and when I submitted it to Professor Rick I knew I aced it….I felt like Ralphie on A Christmas Story when he proudly gave his teacher his theme about the Red Rider BB gun.  He day dreamed as his teacher applauded his beautiful paper and she gave him an A+++++++++.  Only to be snapped back into reality with a C- and a note attached “you’ll shoot your eye out”.   

I anxiously waited for my grades to be posted.  I also got a note attached via email saying ” I need you to re write this essay and turn it back in by Sunday.”  I got a big fat 0%!!   

A zero!!!  On Hosea!  I have read and studied Hosea for two years ( thanks to my brother in law Tom, I will always be forever grateful).    I was appalled and mortified.    I rewrote the entire essay this morning only to get another email from my professor saying it’s all wrong again! 

This was the one paper I submitted with incredible confidence.  Every other paper I have ever written terrified me.  Yet I have made A’s on every paper and one is actually being published. 

I spent the morning it absolute terror and frustration.   Then I decided that maybe I should write on Job, since I felt by this point I have the patience of Job. I wrote the entire essay, not completely satisfied, but I figured that it would get the job done. Instead of saving it, I deleted the entire essay. (Oops)

Then I decided maybe I wasn’t supposed to write about Job after all. I thought about writing on Adam, until I got a bad attitude because God didn’t want adam to be alone so he created Eve.   Then they sinned in the Garden of Eden, and well you know the rest. I scratched Adam off my list.

After spending all morning long staring at the computer screen,  my deflated ego and I decided to change the scenery and soak up some Spring sun on the back porch.   Guess what happened next?  Dandelions!!!   I found myself taking a walk in my backyard blowing those little willows and making wishes.  I was reminded of the saying “some see a weed, I see a wish”.    It was also then I was reminded that the yard needed mowed AGAIN.    As if I didn’t have enough to do,  I hopped on the mower.  While I was starting the mower in the garage I was staring at the cinderblock wall ahead of me, and I was prompted to pray.   I thanked God for my beautiful, complicated, somewhat hectic life. I put on my headphones to Casting Crowns and I took off mowing and singing at the top of my lungs, I am quite certain I was louder than the mower but I was determined to praise God!  

I looked out of the corner of my eye and to my surprise,  our neighbor Miss Brenda darted across the street waving at me on her mower as she  started mowing my grass.  I took the front and back yard and she took on the dreaded hill.   She cut an hour off of my yard work today!!  After we finished, she drove the mower over and I gave her a huge hug.  I couldn’t thank her enough for her kindness.  She said ” something told me you might need some help today”.

God…you are there aren’t you?

The day just got better.  I sold our swing set, the kids and I designed our new backyard space in our heads, I cleaned the entire yard which led to a fire in the fire pit, we played some basketball,  kids took a walk with the neighbord, we did some tree house swinging and made ice cream sundaes.   Best part? Tucking them into bed and listening to their sweet honest prayers.

As I type….um, for the Second time because I accidently deleted my first blog. (I can’t make this stuff up…haha)  I find myself sitting next to the crackling fire and staring at the million stars in the sky.  I realize the importance of making every second count.  School will be there tomorrow.  So will the yard, laundry,  dry wall dust.
I was reminded today of the kindness of others and now I will do my best to pay it forward.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 NIV
Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work; If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!

I won’t be writing anymore this week. I am going to take a couple of days off and get some studying in while I spend some time with the people I love….let’s call it a mini vacation.

Until next time my friends!!
Oh and by the way, to all you single mom’s out there with a little thing on the side called a full time job…..You Rock!!!




As I sit here tonight eating beef jerky and cookies….oh and a couple of Cadbury mini eggs, I’m relaxing in the guest room staring at all the books I have read, want to read and am currently reading. There are a lot of books. Mostly self help, 5 or 6 different Bibles, some children’s books and even a few journals I have scribbled in a time or two. I tend to stay away from the sappy love stories that paint the portrait of couples frolicking on the beach on some deserted island until one of them becomes seriously ill with a mystery disease and dies in the arms of their lover, and as they look into the distant sky they see a shooting star as it is just a reminder that their love will last eternity…, I think my rambling must have something to do with the third Red Bull I gulped down ten minutes ago.
Ok, back to my books.
I have been in search of the perfect book for what seems like eternity. I read my favorite book every morning and night, that is called The Holy Bible.
But….I finally found “the book”, the one I have been searching for. I can’t put it down and it makes perfect sense. This little paperback gem is entitled “AHA, the God Movement That Changes Everything”. AHA is a literary masterpiece.
I have had some serious issues with Mr. Idleman’s books in the past. His book “Gods At War” almost threw me right over the edge. I would read a paragraph, put the book down and then fight with God the rest of the day. This book literally made me miserable!! I had no good days while attempting to read it. (now I know, the devil was having a hay day with me) I have to be honest and tell you that I could not….ok, I would not finish the book. In my narrow mind what he was trying to describe in that book made me insane. “What you are searching for and chasing after reveals the God that is winning the war in your heart”…..that is the most complicated and aggravating phrase I ever heard in my life. I was never ready nor willing to stop pursuing the love of my life. I was searching for answers, the daily why’s eventually took over my life and I was consumed with nothing else. So yes, that was the god that was winning the war in my (broken) heart.

And then it happened, it came from no where….as I was visiting the local Bible book store this week, sitting right next to the checkout was AHA. I quickly picked it up and saw that Mr. Idleman was the author. My first instinct was to run out the door screaming as if I was being chased by a herd of wild buffalo but something told me to give Mr. Idleman one more chance to redeem himself. He did more than redeem himself, he changed my life and my way of thinking.
His whole book is based on my favorite story in the Bible The Prodigal Son….I am not going to spoil it for you because I want you to get your own copy so you can delight in every page as I have. I had my “AHA” moment for sure after reading the book, and guess what, I am reading it again. (this time I have my trusty highlighter)
I may just buy everyone I know a copy for Christmas!!

I think I needed to have my AHA moment before I read “Gods at War”….Yep, I said it. I am going to finish that book If it is the last thing I do on this earth. (it may actually take me that long)
If I am a little cranky with you, or if you don’t see me in public the next few days it is because I am screaming at the sky or staring at the walls. I guarantee you that the devil is going to take every chance he gets while I am trudging through this book to attack me. Good thing I am putting on the armor of God!!

Until next time my friends, go pick up this book.
It is truly “the God movement that changes everything”
(wish me luck)